累。。。累。。。累。。。

好累啊！真的很累！一连几天下来的新生熟悉班好像真的把我给累垮了！双脚还在麻痹着，好像不属于自己似的感觉！现在就分享一下这几天我在搞什么东东！

星期二
星期二就重要的当然是我的面试咯！一早就起来去准备练习！庆幸的是我成功的用新生熟悉班把睡眠时间调整，不然真的可能会误时！虽然是第一次面试，可是我竟然觉得很闷，超正定的感觉，可是还是对其他人说好紧张！我想可能是新生熟悉班的锻炼，所以已经不害怕跟陌生人谈天，更何况是隔空的！哈哈！当然还是有做好准备功夫，好像把灯光调好之类的。印象中还记得几个蛮搞笑的问题和回答方式。好像是酱的。。。

1)What do you plan to do after you have graduated?
Honestly speaking, I plan to join media company to work in front of the screen, becoming a host after I have graduated.

2)Why don't you apply a media company internship then?
This is because I don't want to limit myself in a specific area, especially I am currently working in the media industry i.e. working as a part time DJ.

3)Why don't you apply internship in Malaysia instead of Australia?
This is because they tend to offer the internship position to their own people only. Furthermore, I plan to start my career in Malaysia, of which I think it will be a good idea if I manage to get an internship position in Malaysia as my stepping stone.

情况大概是那样！不是太记得了！不过好是要借机会去感谢韵蕊，给予的指导与鼓励！下午，就跟Marshall去逛街！真倒霉，本来好好的计划，忽然变了做电灯泡，一闪一闪的，真讨人厌！晚上，当然就是跟新生们用餐咯，还蛮开心的；饭后就帮彦彤去弄他的 Unit Enrollment，弄的大该十一时左右才回家！

星期三 ／星期四
如往常一样去帮住新生！不愉快的是我们在里面忙的团团转，其他人在外面开开心心的玩着，真的不懂他们是来玩还是来协助新生！星期四，就去看看接着上课的一些资料。不看还好，一看真的吓死人啊，超多功课要做的，开学后肯定累死！过后就到电台去录我的生日特备节目！

今天 （星期六）
还蛮开心蛮累的！去了一个自己想去很久很久的地方，Caversham Wildlife Park! 虽然外观不是想象中那样，可是整个旅程都很开心。第一次与Koala Bear和Wombat零距离接触！还有机会喂袋鼠吃东西，感觉好棒哦！现在等着朋友把相片放上网，好期待！

新生熟悉班也在这里告一段落！也是时候收拾心情开学了！希望有人会记得那一天！

忙。。。忙。。。忙。。。

突然间觉得好忙好累哦！也许是真的好久没有在一天内做那么多东西了！这两天下来的新生熟悉班好像有点把我累垮了的感觉。。。现在，双脚好像不怎么愿意离开椅子。第一天，本以为会有很多新学生到来，可是出席的人数大大的比预期的少。。。可是以足够把志愿者忙的一头烟。看着新的学生，傻呆呆的，尤其那是从来没有离开过家里的。。。或那些跟着家长的。。。就想起当年的自己。。。现在的小孩，生活在过渡保护的环境中。。。忽然间要面对那么多的的问题。。。难免会有点乱。。。不过还是希望他们有个美好的开始！

昨晚，因为懒惰的关系所以就到了一个教会的聚会去用餐，真的玩得很开心。最好笑的是没想到在一晚上能够扮演不同的角色。。。好像辜负Grace的负心汉，欺负Grace的大男人，应届香港小姐，记者，大明星，求婚，真的玩得很累很开心。现在想想，也许我真的属于这个圈子，不知道了，不敢抱太大的希望，凡是顺气自然就好。最重要的是活在当下，做好当下的事情！

这段期间虽然很累，可是也认识了很多新朋友，当然最重要的是把睡眠的时间调整了一下。。。哈哈。今天刚刚忙完一个Amazing Race。真的好累哦。。。跑上跑下。。。天啊！真的很累！接下来的 ”通告” 好像都满满的，真的是时候从那种懒惰的冬假中从新恢复状态，不相信，请看：

星期日：
（1）家长与新生联系日
（2）准备Job Interview 的问题

星期 一：
（1）跟Paulie吃Lunch
（2）录制两期的电台节目

星期二：
（1）接受Job Interview
(2) 协助新生

星期三以后的通告还在安排着。。。真的很忙啊！累了，不写了！

新生熟悉班。。。

时间真的过的很快。再多一个星期，我又要再回到大学上课了，心情没有什么特别的感觉，只希望得到上天的眷顾，把成绩考好。这个星期是新生熟悉班的开始，我参加了志愿团体去协助一些刚刚到达的朋友。感觉怎样？好奇怪哦！总有种被人投闲至散的感觉，明明就会做，可能会做的更好，却被人调去守池塘。算了，真的不想多说，只是尽量争取机会表现，可是却往往有种强人工作和功劳的感觉。。。天啊！告诉我吧，我应该怎样做呢？其实，每隔志愿者都怀着自己的目的去参加，帮助新生只不过是一个借口而已。好比说太空闲，希望能拉拢人等等。。。当然，我自己是因为太闲空。也许我应该开怀点，看开点，那日子会容易过些。

最近不知道怎么了，开始喜欢上听歌。看TVB好像变得好无聊！可能听歌能够安抚我负面的情绪。。。累了一整天，只有贴心的音乐能是打开我心房的钥匙。至于TVB，可能剧情都能够猜到，所以没有太过大的惊喜了。而且，最近的戏剧都。。。闷闷的。。。太多负面情绪了，还是听歌好，静静的。。。

冬天好像就要过去了。。。是迎接美好春天的时候了！就快要进入人生的第二个十年了，可能没什么人会记得，或者再面子书上留个简单的祝福而已。不知道今年的生日会不会一个人过，真的不知道。。。去年，谢谢有Winnie姐给我惊喜还帮我庆祝。虽然不是认识她很久，可是到现在为止，那一段片段还在我脑海里，很深刻，很深刻。。。活了那么多年，除了家人，她应该是第一个为我开生日会的人，很感动！今年，不知道会有谁记得。不管期待那么多，不能怪谁。为了学业，我把我自己锁在自己的世界，所以真的不会期待什么。想到生日一个人过，纵有种好凄凉的感觉。不过还是要谢谢我的好友韵蕊，答应送我一份小礼物。

又有一个朋友要会回去了。。。这次是曾近跟我共事的佩然。。。真的很不舍的她。。。不知道几时可以再见面。。。对我而言，她就好像我的大姐姐一样，有什么问题打个电话给她，跟她谈谈，有什么事情跟她聊聊。虽然至从她没做电台开始，我们好像多了层隔膜，不过她的确帮了我很多很多，除了感谢，我真的不知道可以说什么。。。祝福她锦绣前程，身体健康，就重要还是每天开开心心。。。

这两天爱上了一首范逸臣的歌曲 《除此之外》，不妨听听，可能能够带开你的心灵。。。

My winter break...

Hopefully you guys can really read this post. I have tried to post ample times but ended just clicking on the 'sign out' button. Here are just some updates from me ^^

Finally, I got my MAC laptop back after I have been waiting for approximately one month. Thanks god! The feelings of using your own computer is definitely awesome! However, I still wish to express my gratefulness to Paulie for kindly lending her net-book for me. In this issue, the lesson that I have gone through is "To fight for your right". However, the consequence for this lesson was... Waiting, waiting and waiting. Perhaps, like what Caren has told me - Patience is virtue. Anyway, it was over. Everything is fine now.

I have attended Paulie 21st birthday party last Monday. How was it? Well, early in the morning, I rushed down to the city to do my radio show recording, followed by getting Paulie a last minute birthday present. Eventually I planned to get her a scarf as what Caren has suggested, but I ended up getting her a willow tree - Blessings (Unexpected blessings, everyday). I really wish that she will receive all the bless from God in her future. No troubles definitely! It was a fun party although I didn't grab the chance to speak to other people. One of the things that I must share with you guys is how tasteful were those food in Sizzle Mania. Ops. I shouldn't mention it at this moment as I haven't had my dinner yet. It was no doubt delicious!

How about my Tuesday? Hardly remember what's happened on that day. What was in my mind currently was I woke up at 12noon that day. Nothing special right? That's the life of holiday person. =) On Wednesday, I went out to have dim sum with Paulie, Vicky, Ah Yan and Ah Kit in Dragon Palace. Oh yea... I remember how reluctant the staff there to serve us the dim sum. But, it is definitely a wonderful lunch. Later in the afternoon, I met two friends from TAFE discussing with me the film translation matters. Till now, I have done with my film translation and, no doubt I would get credited. =)

Recently, I have found out that there are plenty of nice clothing in TaoBao. I guess I have to spend another huge bulks of money to get it. Anyway, I am finding sponsor. If you are interested in sponsoring me, please do no hesitate to contact me via email, chat, Facebook, or mobile.

That's all for today's post. =)

Cornelius XD

用心体会 ^^

一个星期又过了，感觉好像没有做到什么似的....放假的感觉总是懒洋洋的...可是开始习惯了这种感觉...觉得这也许是人生的休息站...不苛求一定要什么... 凡是顺期自然...感觉就好像行云流水般的自由和平静... 享受生命中的每一步...从戏剧体会人生中每一个阶段的道理...对我而言是一种非常棒的感觉...

这个星期 《谈情说案》 大结局了...虽然大家对这套戏剧的评价都是两个字 “抄袭“。也想起黄宗泽的一句话... 香港的作品十个有九个半都被人说是抄袭...可是对我来说 ... 我非常喜欢这套剧里的对白... 跟大家分享以下...

* 第二十一集*
其实我们都是感情用事的人，我们做的每一件事，都是用心百分百的投入，我们这种人都是注定付出多，受伤更多。

人总要转换一下环境来疗伤....

重感情的人心地一定很好，心地好的人一定会有好报...

* 第二十五集*
很多东西已经过去，也不想去想回，可能应为这样，身体里会好像有一个开关，偶尔就会响，提醒我不可以再试第二次，不可以有第二次..。

就是那种痛让我醒觉，我告诉我自己，我以后要做回快快乐乐得犀利妹，不会因为你而改变...

世界上最珍贵的东西唯有用心去领会，不会有任何的计算方式...

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用心体会，就会明白这些情景.... 希望大家喜欢 ~

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《谈情说案》主题曲 - 直到你找不到我 （林峰主唱）

寂寞的夜

寂寞的月亮，有星星的陪伴，寂寞的人，有谁愿意陪伴？近来好像常常都上来写部落格，也许太多时间了，想了太多东西，心情就只会down down down。又想起我常用的一个比喻，一个跟我非常贴切的比喻——鸡蛋。坚强的只是外壳，内心还是非常的软弱。本来刚刚打算一来就开始部落格的，可是最后还是到了韵蕊的部落格去看看。结果非常出乎意料的，读到了一些非常，怎么说呢，真的找不到形容词的一篇文章，所以接下来要回应一下，希望她也能看到咯。

林峰说“爱情源自于一种叫做苯氨基丙酸,当一男一女走在一块，这种激素就会增加，这种关系和情况叫做爱情。”其实感情真的是两个人的事，如果只是当方面付出，结果就会是零，一个彻彻底底的零。留下的只有一句微不足道的 “对不起”。有时候会想，这句对不起真的又治疗的作用吗？想到这里，除了傻傻的笑，我真的找不到一个更好的表情。看着韵蕊为他改变这个那个，而他无动于衷，真的值得吗？我想，热恋的情侣都会异口同声的说 “我愿意”，情况就好像在教堂说的那一句 “我愿意 ”。其实如果真的喜欢对方，不需要刻意或太多的改变，改变了，也不就是你了。不过，我想现在我还没有资格去说这些东东。再看看《大唐双龙传里》的徐子陵，默默的为师妃喧付出，一种不求回报的付出，就知道爱情可以很傻，很傻。忽然想起林俊杰《简简单单》里的一句歌词，好像是这样的，没有被爱情伤过，也就是白活了。

累了，不多写了，写了也不会有任何改变。把伤感翻来翻去，反而更加的痛。唯有祈祷。。。祈祷再祈祷！盼上天眷顾 ～

Today ^^

Wow. It is the first time I use Mac to blog. The feel is extremely good. Well, I am not hard sell or what. I used to be a window user as well. The only different that I have experienced till this moment is the display. I like the display of Mac, it is just too nice. Soft and gentle. Lol. Funny adjectives to describe right? But definitely Mac gives me this feel at this moment.

Well, it is a productive day. Should I say that? Not really... but definitely I did something meaningful... I guess. Early in the morning, I just couldn't get up from my bed. I enjoy to sleep (hibernate) during this winter. I guess you will wonder why I need to wake up so early since I am enjoying my winter break currently. This is because I have an appointment with Kris, the presenter / founder of the Multi Maker Mahers. Wow. Sounds so professional isn't it? Due to my lazyness, I overslept and slight late for the meeting. Sorry! So how's the result? Good, Bad or what? I don't know. Depends on how you view it. Of course, it is good for my resume no doubt... But bad because of what... I need money... I am running out of money and yet it is another volunteer work... Gosh... I wish it is paid... But anyway, I guess I will probably take it... cause the workloads isn't that much though... just need to update when you are free...perhaps once in a month will do =)

After finished the meeting, I went to shop for my laptop cooler. Once again... oh my god. A laptop cooler cost AUD 58 (Logitech)... Gosh... it is just too expensive... I didn't get it at last... But unfortunately, very unfortunately, I went into Target and try to guess what I did? Once again, I couldn't stop myself from getting a long sleeve black shirt regardless of the declaration of bankruptcy... It is just too nice. Feel bad for not getting it. Honestly, I tried to find ample excuses to get that shirt but I couldn't even get one. The most common one... birthday present had already been used for purchasing a new lappie. Suggest me some please... if you don't mind...

After getting that shirt, I have straight off to the train station. I didn't dare to shop anymore. I know I am those who couldn't stop myself from getting something I want to. I know. On the way back, I was listening to the same song again again and again... 《心窍》from Steven Ma... The theme song of the recent TVB dramas 《蒲松龄》... It is just a nice and warm song... somehow it is a bit sad also... may be I am just a pessimistic person...

Seven-thirty at the night now, I haven't had my dinner yet and wonder what to eat. It would be good if you can deliver to me with this three words 'FREE OF CHARGE'. I swear I will appreciate it from the bottom of my heart. Kidding. It won't happen I know.

Cornelius

Late night ~

It is already so late at night and I am still awake. May be the only reason I can give myself is... I enjoy the silence and peaceful of the night. Regardless of all these, I still don't feel warm. May be it is because of winter. That's a funny explanation, isn't it? Actually I did feel quite tired, but still don't feel good to head into the bed. So, let's me share with you what I have done all these days.

Today, I went to try for a new cleaning job. But anyway, I am still considering whether it is suitable for me or not. The only reason I will go for the job is because of money. When I thought off that, I laughed out. I really did. I used to tell people around me that I wouldn't go for a job if I am not interested with it. But yet, realistic have stopped me from thinking that way. I guess the only reason why I used to think like that is because of my family background. I must emphasize here that I really appreciate what my parents have offered me all these while. I am not rich, but yet all my needs are satisfied by my parents. Frankly speaking, I got two very contradicting thoughts in my mind. One, go for it ... it is money... Two... Hello boy, are you going to collect rubbish? Hello and Hello... I really don't know. The situation become worse when I have to take a bus or train all the way down there. I really couldn't make up my mind now. I couldn't. Hopefully God will decide it for me. Pray ~

I am going to cut my hair tomorrow. After keeping my hair long for almost three months, I have to cut it short. I have to. Why? I got no extra money to spend on straightening. I must admit i feel pain for it in the first place. But now... getting better. Life is full with difficulties. I understand. Again, the same idiom... Out of difficulties, makes miracle. =)

Between, I am planning to write a short story during the winter break since my original plan for composing my music has failed. Well, I knew it will fail all these while, perhaps, Raphael knew it as well. I really feel sorry for my brother, Janky. Sorry. I broke my promise once again. I really wish to tell you may be I can do it later, but yet I don't have the courage to make another promise again. May be just like what I have always written in my lyrics...

Feel exhausted ~ Bye!

Cornelius

Lonely ~

I am currently enjoying my holiday right now. Unfortunately, out of my expectation, i feel so bore and lonely. Well, you will ask me why? Frankly speaking, I couldn't figure out the reason behind. Really couldn't. Perhaps, I like to be busy... or I am those who don't know how to enjoy wonderful time? May be...may be...

Recently the broke down of my computer made me feel so upset. In fact, I am now blogging using Paulie's lappie. I really appreciate Paulie for kindly lending me her lappie. The fact that my computer broke down has messed up my original plan. I have planned to straighten my hair during this winter break. I have been planning it few months ahead. But now, I am wondering should I? Under the bottom of my heart, I wish to. I really wish to. But will I face the fact of running out of money in future? And will I able to get a library job as I planned? I really don't know. Meanwhile, I still need to consider which model and brand of lappie I want to purchase in future. Honestly, I can still survive to do my assignments in university. The only thing that I couldn't stand on is without lappie to download dramas. Hello my dear readers, I am sorry to inform you that I seem can't live without dramas.

I have sent out lots of internship application. One of them has turned me down. I really wonder the reason behind. I really wish to know. Tell me why. I understood that it is a normal thing happening around the world every second. I also understood that I cant accept all internship if all of them are offered to me. I really do. But still I don't feel good for it. I swear besides my first job, I wont send out anymore application. I wish someone is going to send me an invitation to join their company. In other words, I have to be successful enough to experience that. That's the society requirement. I understand.

Suddenly feel good posting blog in English. Yet, I don't dare to take the English assessment in the JobStreet.com. Why? Am I still not confident with my English level? I don't know. But yesterday one of the Paulie's friend called to ask about some English stuff. I can't be bother going to lecture today. This sentence seems pretty normal and easy for to understand. But to him, he translated it words by words to Chinese and confused with the meaning of the whole sentence. Looking at him, I think off myself. I know I used to be like that as well. But now, I am confident to say that I don't have to translate between English and Chinese everytime I speak. Speaking English is just like speaking Chinese. But I must admit that I might lose some words sometimes, and I also understand that there is always room for improvement.

Recently, feel quite lonely. Those people I can talk to are busy with their own stuff and matters. And still, I couldn't see the reason for disturbing them. May be just because my problem is minor or even nonexistence... just because i think too much for it... May be...

Cornelius XD

放假历程~

终于放假了... 其实这个部落格... 想写很久了...不过，放假，累了，人也懒了. 想起还没放假的时候， 写部落格是多么开心.... 让你远离功课的一个超好超正的借口.... 当你真真有时间写的时候，反而又觉得好浪费时间....虽然不写，也不见得时间能如何好好用... 哈哈...

想起上个星期五, 真的很开心....交完报告上去时的那时候，心情真的好像小学作文所写的... 非笔墨所能形容.... 真的好像好像大声大声地喊.... 可能会有点欠扁的感觉...因为人家还在准备考试... 而我竟然开始看我喜爱的TVB 了....

近来这几天，懒洋洋的....虽然还有一份小报告要交... 可是也好懒惰做了... 为什么... 因为赶了好多集的天台节目.... 说啊说啊.... 好像没有在一天里说过那么多话... 第一次有不想开口说话的感觉... 两天十四小时不停的说说说.... 想想想.... 质素怎样呢？还好吧我想！回来就edit, edit 和edit... 累夸了.... 生活除了是睡觉就是电台.... 还好是我喜欢的东西... 不然天王老子也不给脸啊！

本来打算明天开始做功课，可是我母亲大人又有任务给我了... 要下市中心去问东西了啦... 结果又要早早起床了... 今晚能早睡吗？不知道... 好像过惯了爆肝的生活... 健康？好像不是我这个时候说的东西.... 你可能会说老了你就知味道... 不管了...应该学下他人那样... 走一步算一步，这样会开心点....

当然，我这个创作公司的老板也不可以偷懒... 因为已经偷的不能在偷了... 要赶快写歌了... 不然一定会倒闭.... 哈哈.... ^^ 近来写的一首个是... 梦想和爱情的合成曲... 当你在追求梦想的时候, 你身边重要的他（她）离你而去时，你会如何？累了？你会如何？一首非常贴切我们的歌曲... 敬请期待咯... 本年度第五首创作曲~ 《J之梦》..... （Applause）

刚刚下厨了... 接近N 个月N天没下厨后，再次下厨... 感觉也没怎样... 还以为会很兴奋.... 好了... 我这个老人家... 就啰嗦到这里咯... 敬请期待《J之梦》.....

我觉得自己好似沙煲仔咁傻!

呢个世界其实可以好简单，好开心... 但係唔知点解人人都要往向爬....

听日考试了... 好紧张.... 已经三更半夜咗，但是都没温晒... 点好？我真係唔知道... 想揾个人讲吓都冇... 睇戏睇到眼泪都流... 对我来讲 〈富贵们〉呢套戏最感动嘅地方，係兄弟情.... 睇住沙煲仔 （马国明饰）... 每次做乜事都係为咗佢大佬.... 真係觉得好感动.... 一段戏可以重复咁睇好几次... 成日都同D friend 话，我演戏嘅时候好容易投入... 感情戏唔使用眼药水都可以... 话者係因为自己经历多咗... 所以好容易投入....

一句我本人好钟意嘅对白.... 我同佢都係一个好简单好踏实嘅人，我信我地有双手一定唔会饿死... 可笑嘅係人人日日都追求... 到头来又唔係只係希望可以安安静静咁过埋下半世....讲到尾 最重要嘅都係有人陪你一起过....

我呢个后生仔实在太灰咗... 话者係太担心听日嘅考试... 盼望你帮我祈祷....

希望 力量 勇气

又上来写写东西了.... 再次的搬出我的台词.... 我累了.... 最后的两个星期,我都觉得好久哦....真的很累... 听着SHE 的旧作... 《远方》，真的希望可以到她们歌声中的远方。一首非常浪漫，充满想象空间的歌....累得时候，给你一丝丝的心灵上的平静与安慰....

近来，我的生后好像乱乱的... 记得上几个post 也是酱写... 可能乱了很久,没有力气去整理.... 过了就算... 得过且过吧！ 不过还是有开心的事情发生的...我希望和我担心的事情... 都一一解决了； 结果还是自己希望的.... 所以说，上天对我不薄.... 不过多一两天又是时候面对现实了.... 又要继续跑了.... 人生如果有一个休息站，那该会多好... 做自己想做的事情....

心累了，对什么事情都好像提不起劲啦... 看到身边的朋友，都和我一样累到夸了... 还是不断的鼓励着对方继续的往前跑，跑啊... 跑啊... 不知所措的时候... 停下来看看地图... 过后... 又是跑... 如果人生每个人都可以平平淡淡，不必追求社会为我们设下的目标, 那该多好？ 想象的东西往往是那么的美丽....平淡也是一种幸福... 只不过是没人懂得品尝而已！

Yunrui 姐姐考完试咯！为她感到开心, 回家也变得好像是理所当然的事了。 我想，游子那么累是因为没有人再身边互相扶持, 词语的力量不大, 拥抱和行动才是最重要的。这样，游子的心才会温暖，笑才会灿烂~ 坚强是鸡蛋的外壳，在外界不断的碰撞下，也会有裂开的一天，这种裂痕为由用爱才能填补.... 好有诗意的感觉

北方南方某个地方..... 这个post 结束在SHE的歌声..... 老本行... 电台台词~

《我不想做爱的小丑》

一首浪漫中夹着悲伤的歌曲。送给我的一位好朋友~ Yunrui .....希望她会喜欢！

《我不想做爱的小丑》

填词：世骏 作曲：世骏 编曲：韵蕊


四叶草随着轻风飘送
幸福降落在那一个角落
我不舍得却要与你擦身而过
你背影渐渐消失

爱情像烟花般样灿烂
也像烟花那一样短暂
我要的不是在那情人节的浪漫
是那永恒的承诺

我不想再做爱的小丑
我真的觉得很累
每一天化妆 逗你微笑
而你还是傻呆呆的

我不想再做爱的小丑
我真的觉得好苦（痛）
全天候默默的为你付出
而你最后只说一句
对不起

而我最后只想说
Baby I Love You

望着那快乐的许愿瓶
祈求它赐你爱的勇气
好让我这孤单的小丑
也可以感受
我爱你的魔力

第一个广东Blog

真係玩嘢，三更半夜先来写Blog. 仲又係写广东话嘅添，可能写都半夜都没定。你会话，而家都半夜咗喇...哈哈... 近来真係劲攰，都唔知做咩...又唔係做好多嘢.....可能老咗喇... 没到廿岁人都咁快攰， 卅啊岁唔係死得? 哈哈...

原来近来唔係我一个人有感情问题，企他人都係o.... 原来感情依家嘢，真係难搞，最好就唔好掂啊... 掂到嘅话结果有两个.... （一）甜蜜如蜜糖 (二）烦恼到痴线..... 都揾唔到答案架.....不过，而家放开咗就好D 喇....随缘喇....

听日仲有大把嘢又做... 过埋依几过星期话啫会开心D嘅.... 不过，近来做电台真係嘅开心...几有成就感.... 母亲节果集最钟意喇.... 希望我妈咪都钟意喇... 仲没send俾佢...不过第一次係电台讲我爱你，因该都会嘢特别嘅....

太攰咗，唔写喇... 不过希望大家都开开心心.... 近来我两个对我来讲好重要嘅人都唔开心，都好烦，当然我都唔好得去边... 希望大家开心喇....

拜拜!

奇迹 Miracle

睡了一觉很舒服的，脑海里空空的，梦甜甜的。好久没有这种感觉了，好舒服。有这种感觉，因为我熬过了很多份的功课。。。奇迹。。。真的熬到很累。。。不过还是成功的在五点前，把所有的报告交上去了，熬了几个通宵，真的累了。。。奇迹的是我还活着。。。想起Paulie的一句格言。。你唔会死ge啦！也想起Caren的一句话，雨过总会天晴。安慰人的话，是多么好听。。。再想起J先生的一句话，当然啦。。。不然我叫你放弃吗？ 哈哈。。。少不了的当然是Yunrui 的。。。我相信你！ 感谢上帝把这些天使送在我身边，让我的大学生活不至于孤孤单单。。。

哈哈，这里真的要提提Yunrui，因为真的觉得她很伟大。。。哈哈。。。我赶报告，她好像陪我一起赶。。。因为我做完了我的功课，都需要有人给我一些些意见，检查检查一下。忽然之间，她好像变了我的秘书，哈哈。。。真的还蛮好笑的。。。未来的商业奇才，转身变了我的秘书长。或许她是TVB《女王办公室》里的 “A”版 Queen 姐。。。不过，我还是真的非常感激她。。。

昨天，跟我帅爸和靓妈skype了。。。我的帅爸。。。真的把我给气倒了。。。跟他说了问题，他说：“我也要你搭救。。。” 什么？哈哈。。。不过，真的很开心，最近真的太忙了，没有什么时间跟他们好好的聚一聚。。。想起我的靓妈，哈哈。。。好喜欢她的一句话哦。。。 “你大个仔咗啦，你自己钟意啦！”超窝心的。。。我想，这一次，这句话，不是一句气话，而是一句让孩子自由的追求自己想要的，只要是对的，他们一定会支持。。。虽然是昨天的一句话，可是心到现在还是甜甜的。。。

哦对了，我打算年尾的时候到西马去玩玩，才回家。。看看好久没见的外婆，看看非常疼我的亲戚朋友。。。想起啦，真的非常开心。。。好像现在就可以去酱哈哈！

Ok啦，现在肚子在抗议，要去吃饭咯。。。

心情分享

这几天的心情，总是乱乱的，对什么事情都好像提不起劲来。望着全家福，好内疚哦~ 爸妈辛辛苦苦的赚钱供我出国念书，而我却在那儿胡思乱想。天啊，可以停止这种生活吗？救救我吧！

虽然我现在才大二，可是对着茫茫无际的前路，真的是充满畏惧。不是没有目标，而是太多的矛盾。原来人生真的不可以有太多的顾虑，想多了，只会缺乏了勇气；不想，等到出事的时候，就极度后悔。人生是多么的矛盾~ 我想不管我再怎么想，都不会有结果。不管我多么的尽力去放松，脑海里还是浮现着这一堆堆的问题，多到我连功课也想不到了。

赚钱、环境舒服的工作 — 老师

入行薪金挺高，环境舒适，福利好，兴趣中等。毕业了再多读一年书，不是什么大问题。问题是，我真的应该为了这份工作放弃我的理想，上天赋予我的天份吗？我真的不知道。

节目主持

入行薪金挺低，环境OK, 福利不知道，兴趣超高。不知道应该如何进入，还在努力搭路。

两条路，这么选择？虽然我不是一定要立刻做出选择，可是我想这个选择会影响我的一生。年轻是本钱，我真的有想过给自己五年的时间去选择，可是到头来好像不能，忘了自己还背着重重的担子。真的好像找塔罗牌问问我的将来~

累了，不写了。

Cornelius

生病了 =|

好不容易挨到了Easter Break， 可是又生病了。这回，头好痛哦~ 不想想东西，真的不想。 就连比山还要高的功课都不想碰了~ 只想休息，睡觉。不过，还是回到现实吧，明天会去看医生了， 再这样痛下去，可能真的会影响功课了=

最近好像事事都不顺利，老是碰钉子。不想多说，因为知道人生一定是充满着考验，找朋友诉过了心情，上来发泄一下，也就算了。当然，也不止我一个，身边的朋友都好像面对同样的问题。升学问题，学业问题，工作问题，人生问题。。。各种各样的问题。人生的每一个阶段都好像充满着问题 ~ 回忆起老人家的一句话，做小孩子是最幸福的。我想这句话，现在才开始慢慢的体会，才开始慢慢相信~ 小孩子总是希望快点长大，可是长大之后，又好像不是想象中的那样快乐~ 人生如戏，戏如人生，唯有希望大家能有一个完美Ending ^^

踏入2010 年，好像有些领悟，开始越来越知道自己前方的路应该这么走。我想，当你要追求自己的梦想的时候，一切都可以变得很渺小，因为人因梦想而伟大~ 不过，小归小，还是要考虑，人生就是那么的坎坷。想起Caren 说的一句话，雨过总会天晴。 安慰人的话往往就是那么的动听~

当然，人生五味 - 甜、酸、苦、辣、咸，少不了有快乐的事情发生。 再次回到电台，我的小天地去上班。虽然有种被人雪藏的感觉，可是那份满足感还是有的。开始变得越来越专业了。。。自己觉得~ 跟着新拍档，不知道应该当她是新人还是旧人，新的是她真的没有什么经验，旧的是她的发音真的好好哦，就连一向非常自负的我，都甘拜下风~ 不过，真心希望 《骏晴午夜号》能够打响名堂~

最近又认识了一位朋友,就叫他 Mr.J吧~ 真的非常的欣赏他对梦想的那份执着、坚持，虽然再累，也没有放弃的意思。 我想我真的要好好学习，为自己的梦想勇敢的创创。

好了最后跟大家分享一下，我最新创作，希望你们会喜欢~

《牵。幸福之手》

填词：骏仔 作曲：骏仔 编曲：李韵蕊

静静的我独自坐在沙滩上
凝望着那无边无际的一片海
微风中轻轻的夹着幸福味道
怀念起昔日你的微笑

远方传来教堂幸福的钟声
爱神牵引情人走向了缘分路
为何我却总是得不到那眷顾
这回我真的不懂了


我说着我的故事
你听着他的故事
就算我说几次
都在那风中里消逝
不管我多么爱你
你却无法好好的 吻我
难道守候你 是如此的寂寞 Wowowo

不管你牵谁的手
我唯有希望你会 因他
拥抱全世界最美的星空


我真的很想放开双手
让你 追逐你想要的所有
可是我却又不舍得让你走
我深怕着以后

*Repeat*

Please go away dust!

It has been long long time since my last blog. But why I am posting today again? Anyway special? I dont think so. In fact, I think I am crazy as I am still posting a blog after going through the life of writing , writing and writing. I woke up EARLY today, perhaps is the earlist after I came back to Perth from my hometown to complete my essay. Due date today? No. Just because I want the Teaching and Learning Centre to check for me. Ended what happen? The favorite excuse in aussie I believe... Sorry I am sick today and I couldn't attend... blah blah blah... and I ended up sitting in the student centre, waiting for the lecturer consultation time and of course, posting this blog.

Second year definitely harder than I can imagine. Prior sharing with you guys how difficult it can be, I must credit thanks Ms. Nikita Lee Yunrui for giving me support throughout this period of time. Thanks thanks thanks... My second year life, as mentioned above, wow sounds so essay feel, full with readings and writing. I guess you must be curious as media should deals with hand-on production. But it is NOT for me. For those who are interested to join media industry, think twice la... Of course I know every course is based on the slogan "It can harder than you can image". Never understimate la!!!!! Every week 3 minor assignments, continuously for 14 weeks, ended up is what? DIED!

Let's change some interesting topic. My two fellow friends, Paulie Ip and Caren Lee graduated last week. Congratulations ya! Really admire them somehow... although I know it will be happen on me one day... but still... as what Paulie told me, do 40 sets of assignments first la! Recently, I couldnt stop my mind from thinking off my graduation day. I am wearing a regalia, try to keep your eyes close and imagine how handsome and smart I will... Haha.. stop day dreaming la ~~~Be realistic do assignments la....

Looking at the clock, waiting impatiently, still got 30 minutes to go. Where shoud I go? Perhaps continue to write a long blog for you guys to read? Haha... Yea... I knew what I want to say.... Sorry... the song is still under composing... Please wait patiently.... Who should you point your fingers to? University. Haha.. Too much homeworks... As what Paulie displayed in her Facebook, 3 years hardworks, 60 pieces of assignments, ended up a piece of graduation plus 5 mins on the stage.

Yea. I got two friends that I think I should mention here. The first one is Edmond Chain and the second one is Jason Hong. Sincerely hope you guys are fine. Be strong enough to face all sorts of challenges.. As what I used to said " Life is full with difficulties". Recall back TVB dramas fire flame - Out of difficulties, makes miracles!

Good luck.

This is the end of my "essay". For further information, log on to.... www. corneliusinnerheart.com.my =)

Kind regards,

Cornelius =)