I am back!

Wow... I havent updated my blog for a long time... Sorry for my readers... Please be patient.. I promise I will bring something wonderful to share with you guys soon... =D

Well, there are lots differences in writing this blog compared to those previous one.. One of them is I am writing this blog in my own hometown... Kota Kinabalu... I am back... Haha.. When I typed the word "hometown", it made me thought off Kelvin Fok.. I shouldnt use that word to describe... Based on what he told me, "hometown" this word refers to those villages in china.. Haha.. What a funny way to differentiate...

I really enjoy my life in Kota Kinabalu. Perhaps, it is because I have not been around for ages... actually it was only ten months... However, I feel it is such a long period of time... May be.. I am tired.. May be.. I am lazy.. May be I am not strong enough... or May be... It is just like a never ended circle... Haha.. I belive you couldnt find a specific reason to define your feelings... Although one of our tutor did mention before that you CAN measure feelings... what the hell... How could you that man?

Recently, I just accompany parents going here and there... I find it quite enjoyable though.. Muakaka... While looking others going to school, I am the one who is having my own sweet time... By looking from another perspective, it is a waste of time.. But I think I should waste... after such a long journey.... It is harder than you can imagine to live in oversea... Everything you need to handle... no one is there to help you.. Well.. friends.. do help you sometimes.. but sometimes it doesnt work that way... you got to fix it yourself... ><

In addition, I would like to take this chance to express my gratefulness to few people.. which are... Yunrui, LiShan, Yeow, Vincent, Karen, Dylan.. and somemore.. please dont get angry if I left you out accidentally... Whatever you did for me, I am pretty sure I will aprreciate it... Haha...

Just dedicate the following chorus part of my new composed song for you guys.. hope you will like it.. For the remaning part... it will be publish in year 2010..hope you guys looking forward for it... take care and enjoy your holiday

词曲：骏仔

转一转地球仪

看看你在世界那里
从北极走到南极
寻找爱的踪迹

抱一抱你送我的玩偶
听听你给我的问候
从日出抱到日落
分分秒秒感受
你的温柔

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I dont know who I am ...

I have not been writing blog to express my feelings for a long period of time. As last, I came back here and wrote this blog in English. May be.. everything has backed to its origin and I need to start all over again. Just like the idiom "Easy come, easy go".. Hopefully, I didnt remember it wrongly.

Really feel extremely tired recently. Prehaps, I have more commitments in this semester compared to the last one. I have joined FM 104.9 to become a radio DJ and at the same time I have become a Mandarin tutor in the university. So, sometimes I do wonder whether these two jobs have made me feel tired. However, I do enjoy these two jobs. They really give me a sense of satisfication.

Recently, I always saw my friends displayed some encouragement messages in their personal message in Facebook or MSN. May be everybody is tired... It is the second half of a year.. At this moment, I really wish to cry. I am lost. I watched a drama today and it mentioned there were 24 of ourselves. Then what am I now? I dont even know. I feel like extremely lost. Everythings seem not organize for me. I need to submit assignments, handling radio matters, helps my students... and much much more. How many energy do I still need to complete all these tasks? I really dont know... What I want now.. is just a big hug..

Life is full of obstacles and challenges, so no happiness is forever. Everythings is easy come easy go. No matter are your studies, your time, your job, your relationships.. or your whatever... Just learn to accept it and let the God decides everything.. Although it is tired to experience these kinds of stuff, but you cant avoid for it. Just learn ...

Too tired already.. and still got assignments need to complete.. Someone please give me some courage to go for my future journey!

Unknown Cornelius =

我的心其实很寂寞 My Heart is Lonely

词曲：世骏

热闹的街道

情侣都在那拥抱

就连我手上的电影票

也是成双成对

望着手上的手表

想起曾许下的承诺

什么分分秒秒

早以在空气中消失

我的心其实很寂寞

却在人前选择了微笑

去掩饰 失恋所带给我的痛

也掩饰了我的所有

我的心其实很寂寞

却在人前装着没什么

去忘记 你曾经对我的好

也去忘记 你的所有

失恋路上的我 Failure in Love Journey

词曲: 世骏

星星没了月亮
就好像我没你在身旁
一个人独自的 走着走着
走在爱情的路上

幸福在尽头
要你一路牵着我的手
一起一步一步的往前走
寻找幸福的所有
但是为何你却在中途中放了手
让你我 迷失在那爱情中

为什么你选择放开了我的双手
是不是因为我
爱的你不够
我的哭我的笑
对你已不再重要
而我对你的思念
唯有向寂寞
倾诉

续言：岁月的痕迹

从来没想过，我会在这么短的时间内，写了两个部落格。刚刚从派对回来，说真的，还蛮开心。大家有说有笑的，当然空间感对我来说还是很重要，所以就来写写部落格咯。。。

有人说：“大学是人生最美的日子”。我想要把这句话变成事实，好像没那么的容易。刚刚看了Jovan Facebook 里的照片，发觉，原来我这半年里好像失去了很多很美的回忆。看着一张一张他们一起出去的照片，真的好像成为他们的一分子。也许我就是那么的爱拍照！可是现实中也好像同样的出现两个字“牺牲”。我能考到好成绩，因为我愿意牺牲。牺牲这些跟他们出去游玩的时间，牺牲。。。牺牲。。。为了成绩。。 好像真的牺牲了很多。。。

虽然我知道，相片可以再拍。甚至赚到了钱，可以到世界各地去游玩，拍照。。。可是感觉还一样吗？而我，又真的能够这样吗？ 一切好像都还是未知数。真的不知道我先在做的是对的吗。。累了。。 不想了。。。神，请你告诉我，什么是对什么是我应该做的。。

言

冬假快放完了，又是时候提起书包上课了。如果你问我是否期待，我想我需要老半天的时间来回答你的问题。 期待什么？紧张什么？希望什么？我似乎也不知道了。心里只知道一个事实 - 我要把书念好。现实的社会 - 强者生存，弱者淘汰。这是天塌下来也不会改变的事实。 为有努力，成为强者。不管你累不累，强者永远是你要做的。

漫长的冬假，留在回忆里的，只有学生志愿团和一个上天的恩赐。学生志愿团，也是时候画下完美的句号了。 这个志愿团体，让我的冬假变得更有意义。帮助需要帮助的人，总比待在家好吧。认识了好多好多的朋友，可以说比半年在澳洲还多。说真的，还蛮高兴。

可是，今天我突然觉得原来前些日子的感觉是假象。今天，我本来就没打算去志愿团体帮忙，毕竟我也累了，比别人付出的更多，休息似乎变得理所当然。可是，还是去了一下。可是这一下，让我的心觉得好冷好冷，冷到连冬天的太阳也无法暖化。走来走去，老半天，坐下来和他们聊天，好像都在敷衍我而已。心真的有点痛，有点失望。昔日建造的友谊好像变得好假。。好假。。虽然我相信这些友谊是真的，可是为什么我的心总觉得被冷落？就连我自己也不懂，当然也不要求正在读的你懂。一路走回来，风，在我身边静静的吹，真的很舒服，很自在。风，抚摸我的心灵。真的很舒服，很舒服。感谢上帝给我的一阵风，那很舒服的一阵风，净化我心里的烦恼。风， 我爱你！

今晚，我被邀请去参加他们的派对。说实话，我还蛮想推掉。可是，推得多，有好像有点不好意思。不推，有好像有点勉强自己。所以。。一个两全其美的办法 - 我会去探班！ 他们总说不懂为何我都推掉他们的邀请，而我可以说得只有 - 你们不够了解我，不懂我心里的负担，不懂我的困境。说多了，好像也变得口头禅。解释也变得不那么的需要了。 一切随缘吧~~~

今早，Winnie姐致电叫我星期六去试镜，做个DJ。老实说，我真的很开心。可是，多愁善感的我，往往在开心的背后，想了很多很多。做了这个DJ，我能够兼顾我的功课吗？做了这个DJ，会影响我的什么？不过现在一切还是言之过早啦。 不过，为了寻找到我的伯乐，我想唯有一试！谢谢，Winnie姐！

昨天，去了一个我想去很久的地方 - 柏斯动物园。真的很开心。拍了好多好多的照片~~~帅帅的！哈哈。。原来，有时候做动物也蛮好的，什么都不用想，什么都不用烦，多好。。。

我的生日快到了~~会是一个怎样的生日？会有多少人记得？下回分晓！

好了！累了！说完我的心里想的，心好像也不再那么的沉重。 舒服多了~~~

夜。心灵的空间

夜

一个虫儿歌唱的时刻

一个平静安详的时刻

一个心灵分享的时刻

一个很美很美很美的时刻

。。。。。。。。。

世间的人往往

都在歌颂早晨的美

什么一日之计在于晨

却不知道

早晨之所以让人觉得美

让人觉得期待

是应为有着漫长夜晚的衬托

是问

夜晚的美

有谁能够体会？

夜晚对我而言

是一个很美很美的时刻

是一个让我整理思索的时刻

是一个让我的脑海得到平静的时刻

是一个让我心灵得到抚摸和安慰的时刻

夜里

我解下这一日以来带着的

重重的面具

打开我这一日以来

所关闭的心灵

因为我相信

夜里的您

是用心去体会

去感觉

唯有真真明白我的您

才能在这黑夜中

用心去摸索

寻找到我的方向

。。。。。。。